8/3/06 @ 07:41 pm
X [userpic]
...because I know what's in between is something sensual in such non-conventional ways
(6:44:04 PM) X: I liked it better when I had no notable feelings.
(6:44:14 PM) Rachel: aww
(6:44:16 PM) Rachel: im sorry.
(6:44:24 PM) Rachel: but what a boring existance tho!
(6:45:01 PM) X: *climbs up in your lap* Maybe I'm not built for anything but boring.
(6:45:30 PM) X: I'm really having large enough problems with small things which either means I'll do great with big things or completely collapse under pressure.
(6:46:08 PM) Rachel: well if u collapse...u have friends that will be there for u ...and they have fun pills that help with that stuff :)
(6:46:23 PM) X: *looks around for these friends you speak of*
(6:46:38 PM) Rachel: me?!
(6:46:41 PM) Rachel: butthead
(6:47:48 PM) X: *sighs and messes up your hair* Yes but you're just someone I know online. I don't mean to sound harsh and discount anything that we might potentially have but society hasn't really evolved to the point to prepare me to consider people online as replacements of people in real life.
(6:48:26 PM) Rachel: yea yea....but still
(6:48:35 PM) X: I hate when I get out of the showers these days. I will literately sweat for several hours.
(6:48:45 PM) X: And my hair will stay wet forever.
(6:48:49 PM) X: Which doesn't help.
(6:48:54 PM) X: Stupid humudity.
(6:49:08 PM) Rachel: mine does too...cuz i have thick ass hair
(6:49:09 PM) X: T-shirt clinging to me around my neck. One day I'm going have to accept the idea of drying off.
(6:49:26 PM) X: But I like that post shower wet feeling.
(6:49:27 PM) Rachel: haha
(6:49:32 PM) Rachel: yea probably
(6:49:33 PM) X: But I don't like wet clothes.
(6:49:58 PM) X: I once took a shower fully dressed. Must say it was not the most comfortable either in the shower or afterwards.
(6:50:02 PM) Rachel: well dont wear we clothes sill
(6:50:04 PM) Rachel: y
(6:50:10 PM) Rachel: why did u do that
(6:50:22 PM) X: I wanted to know what it'd be like.
(6:50:45 PM) X: Heh.
(6:50:48 PM) X: I tend to want stupid things.
(6:51:05 PM) Rachel: lol
(6:51:15 PM) X: Outside of my penis doing my thinking on occasion I usually want very stupid things or things for very stupid reasons.
(6:51:34 PM) Rachel: that makes sence
(6:51:56 PM) X: I dunno. My stupid things tend to be very different from other people's stupid things.
(6:52:21 PM) Rachel: its all good
(6:53:14 PM) X: If you say so. I'm not quite to the resolve to be fine with the idea of standing in line with a million people for the same exact thing and feeling absoultely alone because I could keep asking people why they're there and not be able to find anyone with the same answer.
(6:53:37 PM) X: Heh. I do tend to take self pity to whole new levels.
(6:53:49 PM) Rachel: so ive noticed :)
(6:54:00 PM) X: How are you?
(6:55:06 PM) Rachel: decent..
(6:55:22 PM) X: When graded with a curve, decent is good.

7/22/06 @ 06:32 pm
X [userpic]
Strange what desire will make foolish people do
(5:36:26 PM) Matthew: we never talk anymore so i will tell you about my week. i was going out with her for like two years and pretty much hated everyday except for the four occassions i broke up with her. anyway, i broke up with her this week because she found out i was hanging out with right? so ive been hanging out with her everyday this week and i could tell she wanted to fuck last night when she was drunk, but i refused since she still has a boyfriend. good or bad?
(5:46:56 PM) X: A girl who is willing to fuck you when drunk even though she has a boyfriend is probably not the best girlfriend material because chances are she'd fuck another guy if drunk enough when she's dating you.
(5:48:06 PM) Matthew: Even if all she talks about is dumping her boyfriend because he never calls or hangs out with her etc etc?
(6:13:41 PM) X: Every so often I think that I want a job. I hate sitting around not doing anything. I could use the money. I could meet new and exciting people. Blah blah blah. At the end of the day when I crawl in bed and pass out, I'm still unemployed.
(6:13:43 PM) X: That doesn't mean that I dislike my current status and it doesn't mean that that I don't want a job, it simply means that I don't want it badly enough to actually do something about it.
(6:14:03 PM) X: If the girl really disliked her boyfriend and their relationship badly enough or wanted to be with someone else, she would be.
(6:14:57 PM) X: So sitting around thinking they'll break up any minute and you'll be there is usually a waste of time. It might happen. It might not.
(6:15:37 PM) X: Course that's all rational thinking and rational thinking almost never applies to the thoughts one has when liking someone who is involved in a relationship.
(6:17:07 PM) X: Oh and if you end up in a situation where you're potentially going fuck someone who is drunk, one needs to go into it thinking that it has no greater meaning and that it's just for entertainment value for the mere fact that there is the potential that the other person will attribute anything that happened on their being drunk and/or say it was a mistake. That doesn't mean that is actually the case but the chance of them claiming that is still there.
(6:18:50 PM) X: If you like the girl to the point where you're willing to be the other guy and that just being around her is enough even if you never end up with her then continue as is. Though I don't know if that is ever enough and really I think anyone who says that is simply rationalizing their actions and is really hoping that something happens moving them into a better situation.
(6:20:22 PM) X: Otherwise I would say keep it friendly and take cold showers and in the situation she does break up with her boyfriend you can then attempt to make a move. Though you have to ask yourself how much she likes you if she wasn't willing to break up with him to begin with which potentially doesn't bode well for you unless she's just really loyal.
(6:22:23 PM) X: Course there's the chance that you should just make bold moves on her causing her to break up with her boyfriend while bouncing on your enlarged penis. Though I'm guessing she knows you're not the guy who would do that and more than likely that's the reason she acts the way she does toward you. You're completely and utterly safe.
(6:22:38 PM) X: THOUGH I'm not one to give anyone any advice. So disregard everything I've sad.
(6:22:43 PM) X: *said

7/22/06 @ 04:02 pm
X [userpic]
on the right hand she had a tattoo of a nude girl she claimed it is what God resembled
Slug - Woman with the Tattooed Hands (Live)

..."Have you got any soul?" a woman asks the next afternoon. That depends, I feel like saying; some days yes, some days no. A few days ago I was right out; now I've got loads, too much, more than I can handle. I wish I could spread it a bit more evenly, I want to tell her,get a better balance, but I can't seem to get it sorted. I can see she wouldn't be interested in my internal stock control problems though, so I simply point to where I keep the soul I have, right by the exit, just next to the blues.

7/15/06 @ 07:30 pm
X [userpic]
Cats and dogs are coming down...
I’ve got blonde on blonde
On my portable stereo
It’s a lullaby
From a giant golden radio
It’s a lullaby
From wonder-woman’s radio

Nada Surf - Blonde on Blonde

7/8/06 @ 01:18 pm
X [userpic]
You're pitiful, you're pitiful, you're pitiful it's true
Weird Al Yankovich - You're Pitiful

This has been floating around for a week or so, I just personally got around to listening to it. If you can't tell by the name it's Weird Al parodying James Blunt's "You're Beautiful." To be honest Weird Al does a better James Blunt than James Blunt.

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» She said, "I was cold as hell" but hell's not cold, I know, I know
(10:14:45 AM) X: People really should be more considerate when they decide to argue. Don't you agree?
(10:15:11 AM) Dawniece: people really should be more mature when they decide to speak dont u agree?
(10:16:12 AM) X: You know that I wasn't referring to you and I when I said "people", right?
(10:16:45 AM) Dawniece: u know that i was referring to u when i said people right?
(10:17:15 AM) X: Yup. Completely why I said what I said after it. Though me being called immature is different. I don't think I've ever been called it before.
(10:17:57 AM) X: Though I haven't been called "dashingly handsome" either which I figure just goes to show how little people truly know me.
(10:18:10 AM) X: When people argue they should argue in places that other people don't need to go.
(10:18:20 AM) X: For example, not in kitchens, bathrooms or hallways.
(10:18:54 AM) X: Because no one wants to have to walk through an argument, gun fight or the filming of a XXX porno scene.
(10:19:44 AM) X: Wouldn't you agree?
(10:21:20 AM) Dawniece: sure
(10:21:37 AM) X: Great.
(10:21:41 AM) X: You know what they call this?
(10:21:49 AM) X: *takes his hands and slowly interlaces the fingers* Synergy.
(10:21:54 AM) X: We have synergy.
(10:22:10 AM) X: And I'm not talking about the solid light hologram that the computer projected on Jem.
(10:22:22 AM) Dawniece: k
(10:24:38 AM) X: It's amazing how many times I give you the benefit of the doubt and a second chance and how disastrously you proceed to fail. Later Dawniece.
(10:25:11 AM) Dawniece: haha...always me
(10:25:20 AM) Dawniece: cute
(10:25:34 AM) Dawniece: whats wrong buddy...i do the same thing u always do to me and u dont like it? go figure
(10:26:09 AM) X: What was it that you did? Rewind and play that back for me, "buddy."
(10:26:22 AM) Dawniece: nah
(10:26:47 AM) X: Oh won't explain..and that's certainly not because you have no clue what you're even talking about. Truly.
(10:27:46 AM) Dawniece: no its not...its just usually that whenever i talk to u its a waste of typing
(10:29:04 AM) X: Then stop typing. Trust me you're not saying anything at the moment that I'll miss and you claim to be able to type things that cause people to miss you..but I kinda doubt it. So feel free to be a slave to my expecations.
(10:30:44 AM) Dawniece has signed off.

» out of the flames.a piece of brain in my hair.the wheels are melting. a ghost is screaming your name
Once on a yellow peice of paper with green lines
he wrote a poem
And he called it "Chops"
because that was the name of his dog
And that's what it was all about
And his teacher gave him an A
and a gold star
And his mother hung it on the kitchen door
and read it to his aunts
That was the year Father Tracey
took all the kids to the zoo
And he let them sing on teh bus
And his little sister was born
with tiny toenails and no hair
And his mother and father kissed a lot
And the girl around the corner sent him a
Valentine wigned with a row of X's
And he had to ask his father what the X's meant
And his father always tucked him in bed at night
And was always there to do it

Once on a peice of white paper with blue lines
he wrote a poem
And he called it "Autumn"
because that was the name of the season
And that's what it was all about
And his teacher gave him an A
and asked him to write more clearly
And his mother never hung it on the kitchen door
because of it's new paint
And the kids told him
that Father Tracey smoked cigars
And left the butts on the pews
And sometimes they would burn holes
That was the year his sister got glasses
with thick lenses and black frames
And the girl around the corner laughed
when he asked him to go see Santa Claus
And the kids told him why
his mother and father kissed a lot
And his father never tucked him in bed at night
And his father got mad
when he cried for him to do it.

Once on a paper torn from his notebook
he wrote a poem
And he called it "Innocence: A Question"
because that was the question about his girl
And that's what it was all about
And his proffesor gave him an A
and a strange and steady look
And his mother never hung it on the kitchen door
because he never showed her
That was the year that Father Tracey died
And he forgot how the end
of the Apostle's Creed went
And he caught his sister
making out on the back porch
And his mother and father never kissed
or even talked
And the girl around the corner
wore too much makeup
That made him cough when he kissed her
but he kissed her anyway
because that was the thing to do
And at three A.M. he tucked himself into bed
his father snoring soundly

That's why on the back of a brown paper bag
he tried another poem
And he called it "Absolutely Nothing"
Because that's what it was really alla bout
And he gave himself an A
and a slash on each damned wrist
And he hung it on the bathroom door
because this time he didn't think
he could reach the kitchen

a person/a paper/a promise remembered
patrick comeaux

» the perks of being a wallflower
It's very quiet.
» Dream yourself a dream come true
Gotta say that I would not mind knowing why I was walking across the library wearing nothing but boxers in that dream. Really would.

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